A typical CA student mentality. Good that you have taken some decision in your life, there are so many who are still enjoying the failure.
There are many firms who need people who joined in CA course and my dear our country is lacking with human resource. I am sure that you will get a job which will take care of your necessities.
Coming to CA course and failure, they are like thick lovers (Just like lila and majnu).... You cant do anything for that except to think witty and break their love.
Just go on and enjoy your life. Everyone has burdens.... Everything in your hands
Free Advice: Dont ever express your fllings to commit suicide to others. One day you will become a great person but this will keep evidence. (All the very best for your future)