i can understand wat u must b goin thru...........but there's no point dwellin in the past.........100 ppl will give u 100 advices.......but at the end it's upto u wat u want to do........I too had missed the finals once by just 8 marks despite clearing in all subjects except for costing.......so i can well understand the frustration...........but one thing that kept me goin was the will power and that zeal to bring a smile on my parent's face........so i suggest u the same.....jsut imagine of d day when u will pass and how proud ur parents wud b of ur achievement.........i can assure u that one success can wipe off all ur past failures and frustrations..............
and about ur studies........well i can share my style when i was preparing.....
i was waiting for the tuitions to get over so that i can sit and study at home for audit and IT ,for these subjects I hadnot taken tuitions.......and my exm was due in nov.......i still rem,tuition of other subjects ended during d end of sept and i jst had aprox 1 mnth to tackle these subjects and had to revise other subjects too...........i almost had a panic attack ...........but i didnt give up.......i devised 1 week 1 subject plan...........so i tackled audit in 1 week......and trust me,i had not studied it before......during that 1 week i did jst audit.slept with audit,woke up with audit .......i had further refined my plan...i jst studied frm compiler...collection of 20 terms......so i used to do 4 terms in 1 day.........and in remaining 2 days i evn managed to revise..........i did standards from book............and boom............audit ran in my blood........all this hardwrok paid off,....i scored 78 and this helped me to pull my group total as i had not done well in other subjects..but i managed to clear in 1 attempt.........
and with regards to IT ......i followed the same thing......it has never been my fav subject.infact i blve,no commerce student will njoy studing it........so it's like a bitter syrup medicne which u have to take no matter wat............
so jst pull up ur socks.......get some inner self confidence and get going....no one can devise a plan for u .....only u knw wats gud for u and wat strategy suits u ..feel free to ask for any help i cud b of...wud gladly help u.............all the best..............