In Search of Myself
Written By: Sk. Abdul Aziz on Tuesday, 11 Oct, 2011
I'm a dreamer......I dream the unreal
Reality for me is quite surreal
I am not pragmatic
Just at times a bit sarcastic
Hatred is annoying
Love is pacifying
Would be suffice.....
.....to say dat I value sacrifice
At times feel fed up of livin' in this domain of enchantment
Would like to run away and live in solitary confinement
At times am paranoid by hustle and bustle of the city
The condition of the village folks fills my heart with pity
The everyday routine of life is just so mundane
The 11 to 6 stuff feels kinda' insane......
Wanna escape from life just like an escapist
Fear is something we can't run from.....sooner or later we gotta face it
I ain't gonna appear in the books of history
Might as well vanish off the planet like a mystery
If I ever contemplate returning to this crazy place
I'd leave it long enough so that they won't recognize my face
Have I lost my clarity of thoughts?
Life seems blank....can't seem to connect the dots
I share a last cigarette with my friend and walk into the station
Purchase a ticket to an alien destination
I'm not a bad guy.....just at times suffer fom frustration
Need a shoulder to rest my head....just need some motivation
I just wanna be heard.....don't need my name up in lights
Am a coolheaded guy........never really get into fights
I feel as if i'm stuck in a tricky maze
Gotta clear my mind....seems to in a state of haze
At times i'm confused and dazed
The beauty of girls just leaves me amazed
I rap about love......rap about hate....
You can't manipulate me.....can't use me as a bait....
Superstition is nothin' more than a fallacy
Loyalty nowadays is quite a rarity
The path to glory is always filled with resistance
In the end it's the experience dat matters and not the journey's distance
I used to have an idea of where I stand
But now the idea's slipped right out of my hands
I don't who I am and where i'm going
The current of life is guiding my boat....i'm simply rowing
I'm done with bein' a sissy and sheddin' tears.....
It's time to be brave and conquer my fears
Gotta re-ignite my spirit....gotta keep the fire burnin'
No more lookin' back....no more turnin'
Music don't impress no more....movies don't excite me.....
Everybody seems to have a problem with me.....everybody wanna fight me.....
I need some time.....need some space......
Can't live no more within this crazy human race...
Wanna embark upon a path of rediscovery
Wanna improve my life and dispel off my misery
At times the thought of isolation scares me....
It strips me off my sense of morals and bares me
But when I give it a deep thought I realize...."Isolation's been my inspiration."
I gotta leave...gotta go....
There's nothin' here for me no more....
I gotta be free.......I gotta be...
.....Somewhere that I can just be me.
CAclubindia
