The biggest problem is i am innocent and it is not that easy for someone who has being so called intelligent throughout his life and as soon as enters the real world knows nothing.
I don't want to be repetitive but this feeling of helplessness is something i am not getting rid of.
Few years back I was not even able to communicate or open up because I was unaware of many things and if today I am not going to get right answers then there may be a time when I would be thinking kaash uss time mujhe koi help kar deta .
Nobody loves to be called pessimistic or any degrading types but everyone would certainly like to be someone who is going to live the remaining part of life at the fullest .
Parenting matters and somewhere my parents had been over protective and may be they were ignorant towards me .
I had blamed than enough but now it would be only just me who will either hammer his own foot otherwise whatever they say like it is destiny...
I was a very good guy but now I have realised that I was a fool so far.
Sab bas apna kaam nikaal lete thay aur ek ko bhi fark nahi padta
Yaha fir bhi padhe likhe aur experienced log hai jo kuch acha suggest kar sakte hai
and ha this time i am being selfish for my only life
But this kya karu thing is ...i don't the word to describe the feeling
I don't feel normal ..i never compared myself but yes i always had this feeling that there is something which I lack within me aur main chah ke bhi samajh nahi pa raha tha
insaan ko itna bhi shareef nahi hona chahiye ke log usko andar se khatam karde fir wo koi neighbour,relative ya principal hi kyu na ho.