Dear Abhishek,
First your must thank god and your parents for introducing you to this colorful world. you may please note life is a game / race and this world is a stadium where you are provided many opportunity to prove your ability and capacity.
I should say one thing to you, just forget about the past, what has happend is happend now you cannot combat with time to get back the time you already lost.
You are saying you lied with your parents and siblings. Thats ok, yaar not a great deal mistake for that you want to loose your life. as you are accepting here openly, you should convey your parents about the facts and say sorry and as everyone in this world is aware. parents are always most kind and lovable persons in this world who whould excuse all ills, lies and wrongful acts of their kids.
As you are saying two months are left for May 2010 Exams. I am sure, If you start now definetely you would clear the exam in this attemp what i personally feel is two months is more than enough.
Concentrate on your studies and forget about the past and now its time for you to start from "ZERO". Just think that you are just a new kid in this world. Just entered the CA Course and it is your first attempt that your are appearing in May 2010 Exam. I am sure when you make up your mind you inside strong tiger will wake up and will start hunt for the the achievements. Hope you never mind and never ever think of losing life..
YOU CANNOT CONTROL THE DEATH BUT IT WILL HAPPEN FOR SURE WITHOUT YOUR KNOWLEDGE.
so why you think of loosing life just think of leading life with lots of fun surrounded by joy always around you
Just think you are a great person and can do anything in this world.
I do not want to write more or give more advice on the other part and would waste your precisous time which you are meant and kept for this May 2010 Exam.
hurry up and keep in mind
TIME IS LIMITED..
DREAMS ARE UNLIMITED...AND
YOU ARE ULTIMATE SOUL AND SOLUTION IN THIS WORLD.
Just chill and enjoy the reading man, dont worry be happy.
IF YOU NEED ANYTHING .. keep in mind
JUST LIKE MY BROTHER, FRIEND CONTACT ME.
I AM ALWAYS THERE ON THE OTHERSIDE...!!
Good Luck.