32 but still not earning plz help

As I have discussed earlier I have been struggling with depression.
Lost precious years of my life.

Now going to start studying for my finals.

One thing which is eating me from inside is that I have not started any earning yet.

I can't express to you about my personality...on basis of which you can make perception about me and suggest me something.

Everything has been very alien to me since I stepped out and the journey of understanding this world around me has been very painful because I was bookish and addicted to entertainment.

I don't have any big brother/sister who can help me so I leave it upon you what you have to say.

I don't want to cry all my life which I want to live without stress but happily.

I might skip the May attempt to secure a rank in November next year.